The days are flying by. We no sooner wake up and we are kissing good night. Rich & I are less than 60 days from deployment now. The weekends seem to be full of "things that need to be done before...", our work days are filled with, well work. Yet we try to grasp moments as if we are drowning. A look ahead to this next weekend brings more "things to be done" to prepare our rental property for the long year and finish up clearing Mom and Dad's house to storage.
Every night Rich and I sit together and pull out our planners...detailing every little committment or event. We know the exact 2 weekends we have left together and the days I will be able to take off to spend with him. One weekend we will use for just the 2 of us and the other we will use for our family time with our children. I'm deeply saddened that it getting so close - I always thought I'd have my parents to strengthen and hold me.
I wish I would sit to write my blogs in the small moments when I'm not sad..scared.. or drowning. Those are the hours or days that I think of nothing - that's freeing for me. I laugh and I love again. Soon I will shut off the sadness and force myself to 'not think' about anything for the rest of my day; this will get me through.
I miss you Mom and Dad!
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