Blogging is an Interesting Thing...

When I started blogging 2 years and 3 months ago I was a hot mess! My parents had just died and then I kissed my husband off to war - all within a couple of weeks. A "Hot Mess" probably doesn't come close to the state of my mind that day in January 2010 when I Googled deployment and came across a fellow Military spouse's blog. Although her story was drastically different than mine I felt an immediate connection to her - and a door opened to me that I had never ever realized was out there. Blogging. She became my first follower and friend.

Throughout 2010 I blogged my hurt, anger, fear and life - to no one other than myself ...then I realized that other people would tune in to read what I had to say. And then they started commenting and supporting me from states and countries away ...each word was read by many and I truly knew that the many friends I found out there in Blog land - all of us in different levels in the same boat - got me through each and every day. The encouragement, shoulders to lean on, laughter and friendship that my blog friends extended to me played a huge part in keeping me from losing my damn mind. I will forever be grateful for the unconditional acceptance I received.

In 2011 my husband came home and we began and continued to find our balance and groove with our marriage, family, jobs and home life. Still I blogged and leaned on those relationships with other military (and non-military) spouses that I "met". As time passed I began to blog less - then even lesser.

It's almost the end of 2012 and I barely blog at all anymore. Life has gone on and some days only the weather changes. I think of things to blog about ...even write full blogs in my head that never make it to written words. I'm a different place in my life from where I started to where I am know. Life is just life with many different facets of life as an ANG wife, FRG Leader, professional in my field, mother to grown adult children and grandmother. Is it worth writing (or reading) about?

I'm at a crossroad now. Do I continue to blog or say that it's been a great healing for me and move along? I'm not sure what the answer is just yet. I'm going to come back in a few days with the answer.

Until then.

Peace