Hello 2014!

I cannot believe it is January 1, 2014! Where did 2013 go and how in hell did I get here? Looking back over the milestones, memories, sadness and excitement that came with 2013, I can honestly say that I've come a long way Baby! I didn't accomplish all that I wanted (or said I would a year ago); but I'm not so far from where I want to be either.

Have I made any resolutions? Not really resolutions - just decisions:

• I decide to be happy and know that it's okay - that I'm okay.
• I decide to begin living and stop living in my grief.
• I decide to take whatever measures necessary to lower my blood pressure so I can come off my medication.
• I decide to find ways to move my body that do not include sweating at a gym at 4:30 in the morning.
• I decide to love and respect myself and not depend on others' perception of me to drive my self-respect/self-esteem.
• I decide to love my husband more every single day.
• I decide to be present in the lives of my children and grandchildren.
• I decide to be the friend that I would want.
• I decide to admit that I feel I have a problem with alcohol...that I depend on it...that I anticipate that first drink after work...that I hate the feeling (emotionally and physically) the next morning - most mornings....that I'm unhealthy from the alcohol weight.
• I decide to stop drinking alcohol. Period.
• I decide to embrace my age and do it gracefully (but with a great dye job and makeup)!
• I decide to choose....

Peace