No tears today...

I haven't cried today - I haven't even felt like I was going to cry. Have I just damn well dried up?! I think I did it all yesterday. After having a MAJOR meltdown in the lobby at work yesterday that lasted for an hour and a half ... I went home afterwards... I just felt I needed one more day off to myself. Today I am... no sure what you'd call it... maybe 'nothing'. No better or worse - just here.

Rich called this morning (for those of you joining the show - Rich is my amazingly tolerate husband). Rich is a soldier in the National Guard. He left less than a week after Mom and Dad's funeral to a 3-week pre-deployment training.... one more week to go. The timing sure sucked but orders are orders, right? Since he's only 3.5 hours away I am going to Fort Away-from-Home on Saturday to see him. He's been sick since he's been gone. After sleeping in a tent the first 3 days in the snow and cold without heat and electricity - and had to admit defeat and come out of the field to sick bay for a shot in the ass and some meds. He's still in a tent BTW. He's a bit older than the soldiers he's training with so I think the pain to his pride was worse than the pain in his ass! This is just the first of several training opportunities before going down range.

I have kept busy today.. took Jake to the vet. He has kennel cough from his visit to the vet last week for shots. Ironic, huh? They've given him some pretty potent meds to knock out his infection. I still thinkthe will need doggy prozac when Rich leaves for the sandbox! Do you think they make that? I went to town - Walmart... gosh, I haven't been there since before Christmas. It hasn't changed and I got the hell out of there! Kelley is coming over for dinner and a movie with a few friends (and my wonderful niece). It's Pizza Soup and Italian Grilled Cheese Sandwiches!

I talked to my oldest and dearest friends today. I never have to censor myself with her - there's nothing about my life that she doesn't know. If I told her I needed to bury a body - she would buy the shovel, measure the body, scoop the first scoop and have an iron-clad alibi waiting!  I said to her...."This all sucks" - she said "Yep. It's all f'ed up and it sucks to be you!" I love her!

No tears. No depression. No sadness. Nothing - yet.