If You Really Want to Know....

I knew going to work today that the question of the day would be, "How was your weekend/4th of July?" . I pondered that question and how I would answer it on the 20 minute drive to work and the 30 minutes prior to everyone else arriving.

7:55am - Coworker #1: "Good Morning, did you have a good weekend?"
8:03am - Coworker #2: "How was your weekend?"
8:20am - Coworker #3: "Did you have a good 4th? What did you do"?
8:34am - Coworker #4: "How was your 4th?"

Thanks for asking! Well, I spent Friday night alone and had cereal for dinner. Saturday I got up and cleaned house. Did some cooking for a Family Cookout that was attended by my Sister, daughter, (both who live with me) my Niece and the Whittens. No other family members showed up. Sunday (July 4th) I cried ALL fucking day beginning at 4:30am - literally. The sadness and loneliness just paralyzed me! I cut the grass (crying), finished some cleaning and did laundry (crying). Ate peanut butter pretzels for breakfast and lunch. Helped Kelley & Beau get their camper packed and kissed them goodbye for their journey West (crying). I cried for my husband, I cried for my parents, I cried for my daughter leaving, I cried because I was sad, lonely, empty....I pulled myself out of the empty house for an hour to go next door for leftovers, only to retreat back in and spend the rest of the day and night alone and in tears. Yesterday I cleaned the down stairs (where Kelley & Beau stayed), went to Walmart and the car wash...broke a nail ~ it hurt like a son-of-a-bitch and bled (I can't get it fixed until it heals enough), and spent 75 % of the day alone  my weekend was fine.
How was yours?

I know I am in the minority here, but...I am so glad the long weekend is over!

We are 25.5% finished with this deployment!