Project "Me"

With our Summer travel behind us and it seems like life may ease up a bit it is time to work on my new project: Project "Me". I kind of mentioned it in my last blog post that there were things I need to fix, mend (or not), and change about me and my direction in life.

For three & years I have felt adrift without a buoy or anchor. I stopped fitting in to my own life and the lives of others. The grief and changes I went through changed me - I'm not the same person and I don't know what to do with the woman I am now. I'm unfocused, unmotivated and I no longer trust people. I've become a glass half-empty girl when before I was a total 1/2 full girl. Where I used to have compassion...I lost that along the way.. I am indifferent. My attitude sucks but I'm good at faking it most of the time. I force myself to socialize only to spend the whole time wishing I was back at home where I am safe and secure; where I don't have to engage in small talk about myself about crap, with people who could care less.  I drink too much... I exercise too little and there is more of me now than there needs to be.

So, where do I begin in the project? Do I clean out the bad and then start new with what's left? Do I start working on the bad to make it good again? I need a life coach! I need a health coach! I need a fitness coach! I need a stinking plan!

This weekend I will spend some much needed time cleaning my house...then I will take some time to start cleaning everything else.

Peace

Turning a New Leaf

Rich & I are in Cali visiting family. While here I have had a few moments hear and there to really look at my life: what I'm doing with it, how I spend my time, who I spend it with. There are things I want to do that I keep putting off and things I've started that I haven't finished. I realize that there are a couple of friendships that have run its course that I need to either let go or decide to fix - there are others friendships that I need to invest more time in. There are family members that I need to put more time in with also. My health has suffered and I have let myself go physically, mentally and emotionally. So... I'm not sure how to turn all of this around but I'm going to write a project "Me" plan and turn over a new leaf!

Stay Tuned!

Peace

On the Road Again

Rich & I have been in heavy travel mode for two months now. This afternoon we will once again load up on a plane and head out. This adventure takes us to the West Coast to visit our son and his family through the holiday. We are looking forward to getting this trip behind us and staying home to just 'be' and do things at home..together.

Happy 4th of July!

Peace