The Panic Sets In

I have to say in all honesty - I'm a little tweaked about going all out 'private'. When I started this blog I did it for me...then at some point I got a follower - how?  I'm not sure, but there she was. Since then I have had roughly 109 known followers and many non-public followers; give or take and off & on. Many became people who I considered (and still do) 'friends' in this town called Blogville... a few became friends in my real life away from Blogville. Many bloggers got me through some of the hardest times with just a single word of encouragement or let me know that I wasn't as alone as I felt. I'm not blowing up with ego over those who chose to 'follow' me; I'm just overwhelmed, humbled and grateful for each and every person that did. I wish along the way that I could have impacted my followers' lives in some way as much as they have impacted mine by letting me into their blogs and lives.

I'm saddened that I feel the need to go private.... I cringe at the thought of hiding. When I log in after 15 November, it will be silent. No one to read my blog, no one to comment..just me. That's how it all started. Interesting. If there was a better way I would do it.  I even considered trashing this blog and starting over - but I couldn't bring myself to hit delete on some of the most important  things of my last 4 years... it all adds up to be My Story.

Peace