Break is Over

So I took a few days away from Blogging and Facebooking..just to breath without any expectations. It was a nice cyber vacation. There was, and still is, so much twirling around inside my head that there just wasn't room in there to deal with the emotions and petty-shit of other people.

It's been a tough week that was sparked off by a phone call that took me back to a time when my parents were alive and then forward to when they weren't. As much as I have learned (or tried) to block grief and thinking about them, there is always a trigger lurking out there to drag me under. I  miss them so much...every single day. It's been almost two years..two years...two years. And yet there are days and moments that it feels like it was just yesterday and my heart feels ripped open and exposed all over again. The mental and physical pain feels overwhelming.

I'm trying to shake the darkness of grief away... it's taking one minute at a time. The time between Nov and New Years will also bring me to my knees because it reminds me of the best of time and then the worst of time.

Peace.