Friday, March 27, 2015

Pull it Together Woman!

I said those words to myself a few moments ago!

What the hell is WRONG with me? I simply cannot get my shit together! My brain is all scattered, I am constantly exhausted, I cannot muster up a single ounce of energy or motivation to tackle the 'cleaning 'list that I wrote 3 days ago  recently, and I feel like I am functioning in a fog!



I just cannot pull it together!!

Am I sad? No
Am I mad? No
Am I depressed? No
Am I frustrated? No
Am I listless, tired, foggy, unmotivated, in a rut? Yes, yes, and hell yes!
I am feeling nothing, yet everything at the same time!

Confused? Me too!

I feel ultimately overwhelmed - but I can't tell you from what! I want to just sit and think...or be...but my thoughts are empty. It's not even like my head is full of normal crap that rotates through my psyche like a video..... the film strip is blank.

I don't even know what's wrong to know what I need to make ME better.

I'm taking my meds like a good little girl, and sleeping (finally), I eat relatively healthy and keep my caffeine and alcohol intake to a moderate level. Yet, something is just w-r-o-n-g here with this picture! The picture is all snow and static....with waves rolling down the front like an old television set.

Jimminy Cricket - WTF?

I'm functioning on auto-pilot...but I'm functioning. That's something, right??

Peace


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