The Point....

I have FINALLY come to the point of realizing:

I am worthy of so much more Life! Meaning - I've wallowed in the grief pool for 9 months and I am tired of treading water. Since my quiet (alone-time) weekend, I have felt freer and lighter. My grief period has ended (well, its not as predominate ~ I will probably always grieve in one way or another). I'm living again!

I have an amazing family and I am more grateful for them every single day. My whole family (brothers, sister, nieces, nephews, husband, children) were dealt a horrible blow when we lost our strength & foundation (my parents) ~ we are coming out of the dust and destruction and are finding our balance and our way to carry on the Family.

I know who my friends are and who I can depend on. I realize who are 'just friends' and who has staying power in my life. I gage what my emotional & support needs are and  I know who to go to. I no longer stress over not having that one good friend that can be there for every mood, sickness, laugh/conversation, and moment. I've learned to rely on my family and myself more.

I am stronger. Stronger in my ability to work through my emotions, doubts and fears. Stronger in my mind so that I don't let those emotions, doubts, fears get the best of me anymore. Stronger in body & health.

I've realized that I've allowed myself to dumb-down in my career. I want more from work - I've worked long and hard to get to where I am. I'm making steps to make changes happen rather than sit and "wait and see".

I've realized that my husband is more than just a husband to me. He is my true partner and mate. I have a deeper appreciation, respect, and love for him. We've lived a thousand lives up until this point...we have so much more to live! I could not ask for a better companion to share the second half of my life with. The first half was a trip ~ some of it I would accept a free-ticket to go back to ~ the second half is all ours!

My children are my strength. They are amazing, wonderful people! I knew that before, but it took being stripped down to see that they are still standing here with me.

I need to let go of hurt & insecure feelings, people, situations, and crap I can't change.

I've realized that if I want things to change...if I want to change...I have to BE that change! 

Otherwise...what's the Point?