How Do I Celebrate?

How do I celebrate a day that brings so much sorrow?

Today is my Mom's birthday. She would be 70, if death had not taken her away so suddenly that morning in December 2009. Like so many people - I, too, had the most wonderful Mother in the World! She was beautiful beyond all measure inside and out. She loved me (and my brothers and sister) with every breath she took.

Today reminds me of how much I miss her.

I miss holding her hand, I miss kissing her lips in the way a child kisses their Mother (except I never grew out of that), I miss watching her put on her makeup - even as an adult I would stand at the hallway mirror and watch her, I miss how she would drink coffee up until bedtime and then sleep like a baby, I miss watching her giggle like a school girl over something sparkly and gaudy. I miss seeing her kiss my Dad (I miss him too). I miss calling her every single day and how we would talk for a second or for ever. I miss how she hated to cook and how when we were growing up that Dad would hate when it was Banquet chicken night! I miss her voice and hearing her tell me that she loves me. I miss being a little girl and playing with her long fingernails that were usually painted red. I miss how beautifully she sang gospel songs.

I miss how she laughed....Oh, god...I miss hearing her laugh!

I miss her from the depths of my soul to the outer layer of my skin. My body aches to touch her and hug her again.

I Love you Mom! Happy Birthday!