"I hear the train a comin', its rolling round the bend...."

Day 20.

There's a train-wreck coming and I can only watch the collision happen. Powerlessly... helplessly.

Someone I love is on a path of self-destruction. The lines between right & wrong, good & bad, life & death have blurred and all reason is gone. This person has been saddled with a crap-load of responsibility that no one their age should have right now; and that the only way to make sense of it all is to make choices that make no sense at all. Rich and I have been on this track before, similar train, same conductor ~ the rail changed before impact. This time... the train is moving faster and on extreme terrain.

Rich is not home right now - focusing on pre-D training - but we had to talk about it. I hated to bring it up at 1:30am this morning when we Skyped. (I couldn't sleep and he had just finished for the day) - but it had to be discussed. Fortunately (or unfortunately), what I didn't know is that Rich already knew about the situation and had a couple of days on me to begin processing the information. In a few weeks Rich will be gone and I know that at some point the train will jump the track.. derail...this train ride is bigger than me - it's bigger that us. It's a heavy load for Rich to take with him down range ~ it's a heavy load to carry here at home without him.  Then again, if he was here, all we could do is watch from the platform together.